We made it but…

We made it to our duty station, I am overwhelmed how big this place is and that’s a good thing and a bad thing. We are living out of a hotel with two kids and no ac and it well… sucks but it’s all worth because my dear soldier is here. Before we took the seven hour drive to our destination the kids and I went to church. I am so glad that we went  my eldest got up on stage singing and dancing with the rest of them it was precious. At the end of the service people were going up being prayed on and for and my granny shoved me and the kids up there. I had intentions on going but got side tracked in cleaning up the baby puke off everything and everyone. Everyone began to pray for me and and the babies, it was the most wonderful feeling in the world. I have never felt it, I was so stressed, broke, and a nervous wreck. I felt Gods power work and he lifted everything off my shoulders. I was going down with a hope and a prayer…. I woke up got “x” amount of dollars in the mail and the next day got our tax money! It was such a blessing I was so overwhelmed by this, speechless… I have always known that He was over me and protected me and He has always let me know  some how some way. But, this time it was unbelievable.

With that said I shoved all the kids in the car and begin our journey. So, 6 hours and one speeding ticket later we got to the airport to pick up my dear solider it was so beautiful. The kids were so happy to see their daddy. I was so happy to see him, I didn’t have a care in the world I was ready to be a wife to him and really get some help with the kids. It has been great but at the same time it hasn’t soaked in that he was going to stay awhile and quite honestly I was waiting for him to leave again. We got here on March 18th and my husband went to his unit on March 23 (his first day I might add) and just when I finally was trying to get comfortable with the idea of him here…. He is deploying at the end of April. I am pissed, crushed, and the signs of depression is setting in. I’m tired of trying to keep strong for the family and I have no one to be strong for me. He is fixing to leave again. He told them the situation… he has been gone for a year! Missed out on ALOT, and now again. He says that he will be gone for only four months…. I am not effin stupid. His unit deployed in February and won’t be back till next year…. we’ll see I am not even being set up for that one.

April 20th will be our second year of marriage luckily we get to spend this one together, our first year of marriage was hard, really hard. Mostly my fault trying to be cool for everyone else and not focusing on what really matters. The good thing about the Army is that this has brought us together, a lot more, but the downside is we are not growing together, we are growing separately and to me that is a strain on our marriage. I am not going to get into all of it but, to some who knows what this is like knows what I mean. Before he signed on that line we discussed about him joining the pros, the cons, but damn we didn’t think it was going to be this hard. Now, we both have to take one for the team again, I have no choice but I am going to do it. I hate being alone, I love my privacy but I hate being alone. It really takes a toll on me, I can’t stand it.

Whats the status on my business? well, I was chugging along and when I got hit with this. I lost all motivation I had this planned out in my head of how this is going to go because this will take my time especially in the beginning. I don’t know if I want to stay or go back home. The name I wanted is taken but I think I came up with a new one… needs a lil umph though and sad to say but at least I have efficient money to really get what I need for my business. I am very taken by this once again we are being ripped apart, so we are just going to have to suck it up and keep moving on and praying.

Right now I hate to be strong… especially Army strong.

Time to get serious…

For the past five years of my life since high school I have been trying to figure out what I really want to do in my life, something I could wake up and look forward to doing and like Sean Parker said in Social Network “A million dollars isn’t cool, you know what’s cool? A billion dollars” and that’s my mind frame. So I went through the usual a lawyer, doctor, running a day care, hair dresser, ugh! I didn’t want to pursue these things because I knew I would give up on it and something I really don’t want to do. I digged really inside myself and searched in something I am really good at… And I found it :-). So although I had a sucky childhood, luckily I learned something from my parents it was to be business minded and to be my own boss. As a child I never understood and now I do. I helped my parents put together their businesses and gained a lot I mean A LOT!

I could sit here and go into about all we done but that will be for another day but I have achieved a lot and know a lot, and that has been instilled in me at a very young age. I am starting a business and in order to be good business I’m starting this blog right here and hopefully have positive response. This blog is going to be about me and how I start my business, I want to be able to discuss anything on my blog and no one get their feelings hurt, I want to be able to tell what I am really thinking and feel about this process… I never done it alone and I have to vent somewhere! 😛 I will post polls ask questions to better serve my potential clients in different genres. And I am really going to ask what makes you spend your money… I hope you don’t mind. I will probably have a tab for my business blogs. I am not sure but I am not afraid of change. I am becoming engrossed in what I am learning and what the Internet can really do for you, if you look for it it’s out there. I am learning to do something for myself which I know will help my business and provide that for my future business clients. Now, I’m not going to make this blog about advertising my business I want to share my experience in what I’m going to be doing and how its going to help me with my business, benefit my clients to the degree and be an example. I am hoping to make a world premier near the end of April, I am in the process in moving and yea I could just jump right into what i want to do but its best for me to wait and get settled and devote my time to my craft for my prospect clients. I will personally tell you the goals I would like to reach, one: is to become a legit work from home program and two: find other people who have the same insight and passion, I want to offer one-on-one relationships and to accommodate my clients their business needs.

I sit on the computer all day anyway and on my Iphone (don’t worry I take care of my home too ;-P) so why not be paid for it? I have the time to sit down and drive a business needs. I recently sat down and discussed my business plan to other people who have started their own and of course my parents, and the feedback I got was positive. And if you guys are reading this I just want to make a public apology for calling to at 2am with new development ideas, so now can just read my blog (you know who you are). This can work I can do this! So, am I going to tell you my business Um… No. But, I do want you to follow I PROMISE you will gain from this even I’d you’re a follower or a future client. so in closure I challenge you to do three things, one: subscribe to my blog, two comment on what you think and three take the first poll and share… okay thats four.

Thanks for reading now signing off.

 Well it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
Looking down at the sky
Don’t let me fall


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